looking through my high school yearbook, it seems to me that everybody believed i'd be doing something great with my life by now. i feel shortchanged. i feel like my opportunities to live up to my potential have been taken away. and now that i finally have another chance to take back my life, i can't seem to seize the moment. i feel as though i've been crushed for good. against all other adversity, i was able to bounce back. but i don't feel myself bouncing. i feel myself shrinking and shriveling and hiding and running.

i feel like every thing i do, i do it just to trudge along. just to graduate on time. but what the hell will i do when i graduate? i just don't know, anymore. i feel like i completely lack the direction and motivation i once had.