heard these song lyrics today (see below) while listening to my ipod. they, in the context of the song, seem to be about a search for god. but they also so resonate with me. they remind me of my own struggles with friends, feeling like i need people only when they aren't there, and wondering if i did something to provoke their sudden absence.

"Why do I always need to need you when you're fleeing?
Where do you go when I'm around?
What have I done? What have I lost that's so defeating?
And have the nerve to wear the crown?"


sigh. music makes me feel just a little less alone.

on another note, houston is great! after speaking with my mom and getting a call from katie, i'm in less of a good mood because my bubble of distraction was somewhat burst. but overall, everything has been wonderful here! the people are so down-to-earth and friendly. i really like the campus environment, and OH YEAH, that i wore sandals and a tank top today! seeing tsz has been wonderful. we really have no shortage of things to talk about. it's been so refreshing to be in an environment with virtually no reminders of anything. i actually spent the entire day, until the evening, laughing and smiling and barely thinking about my troubles at home. i've also gotten plenty of studying done. i'll be sad to leave, but hopefully when i return i'll feel refreshed and ready trudge on. i think i just really needed a break and to remember how it feels to laugh.